I woke up feeling anxious but I fought it off and despite feeling like I needed to puke and having a pain in my chest throughout the day I've managed fairly well. 

I have a lot of plans for this evening which may or may not happen but regardless I'm feeling productive which is a good thing. 

I'm worried about my dad. His surgery was today and I didn't have anyone to vent to about how I've been feeling about it which sucked a bit. But hopefully it goes well and he will be fine. 

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The rest of the day was a bit of a mess. I had a chat with Mani and kept panicking and it was so frustrating because I just wanted to have a nice conversation about her date and our wild Friday night (specifically what case the coke was taken off - we think it was either borderlands or RedDead Redemption) and the cabin but as always I dragged it down into a full on councelling session and it wasn't fair on her at all. I hate that I do this to my friends. I don't have many left and I use them and it's not fair. I need to stop that. 

I went to bed after that because the tightness in my chest just because too much and I cried a bit which was a good release and I think that helped me sleep. 

I missed out on my call with Monika which I feel guilty about though. :/ 

Oh well. Today is a new day.