Number 33 - A Get Together For Us

Today was… Eventful, to say the least.

Woke up reeeeeeeeeeeally early for H because she was arriving at 8. She ended up turning up at 8:30. I was eating breakfast. I was not amused.

We did virtually nothing until Hatter arrived. Then The Mother drove us to the Honda Garage. The three of us walked round town: Waterstones, The Works, Claires, McDonalds (and ate in – a first for Hatter and I :P) until we got bored and decided to walk to Nerd’s house. It took longer than we expected. Using H’s GPS app and Hatters logical thinking (plus Nerd calling out of his bedroom window :D) we arrived.

We discovered Nerd’s Hentai collection :P and watched MLP - ( The link is for Episode 1 :D  so you can start at the beginning) :P We watched Episode 7 was awesome :D (and later on we established that I am Rainbow Dash XD - tomboy, blue with rainbow mane = blue clothes and rainbow gloves!) until the other people arrived, so we all shuffled up to Nerd’s room to watch The 9^th Doctor and Captain Jack :D.

At 2:30 we set off for Wicksteeds. The walk was cool, Nerd and I talked about nerdy stuff and literal trailers until Zilla suggested we grope H’s ass. We did and received many swearwords afterwards. We both agreed twas worth it though ;P

Arrived at Wicksteed park and played on the swings and various climbing frames for a while. I was hanging like a sloth when the Yorkians arrived. Greeted them all and then joined the others at the big tire swingy thingy and jumped on the pole a bit. Swung for a while and then went over to the old climbing frame with Hatter to talk. Nerd came over and made her feel much better :) which I was very grateful for.

Went back to the swings and then the tire swingy thingy again because Hatter and M needed some alone time. That was fun for a while. M and Hatter joined later and M lost his shoes. Hatter passed me one of them and obviously it ended up on my back…. :P M collected his shoe and Hatter and I sat on another tire swingy thingy away from the others. We had a talk about my problems – and then Nerd joined us. That helped a lot but he made my mom sound like a bitch. For some reason though, I agree with her. If I'm diagnosed with all of this stuff then I’ll be labelled as different, and my life is complicated enough already. I’d prefer to live in ignorance than live knowing I’m so much different than the ‘normal’ people. Nerd is partially right though. So I'm going to do some research and try to diagnose myself. Perhaps I'll ask Nerd and Hatter to help. I just don't want to go to a specialist because I don't like talking to strangers :/ Meh. I'll sort it out. 

I am so lucky to have both Hatter and Nerd. Without them I would have been lost a very long time ago.

So after that very depressing talk, everyone decided we should go on a ride – the most popular one being the Pirate Ship. People went to buy tickets and then rushed over to the ride at 3:55 as the rides closed at 4. Just as it went 4 the ride person told us that we weren’t allowed on but when we’d bought the tickets the person selling them told us that if we got there before 4 we’d be allowed on. Something wasn’t quite right… We all moved back to the ticket box, where we were sent to the information office – conveniently it was closed… So we did the obvious thing and knocked on the window :P They summoned the manager  and we had a quick talk: Nerd is now from London, Cleughy and M are going to Australia together and we are never going to visit Wicksteed park ever again :P lol. After all of this had been said, the manager still insisted there was nothing she could do, so naturally Nerd stepped forward and said “Well in that case, can my friend here please have a complaint form?” to which her reply was “I’m sure I could get someone to start up the ride again for you.” :P Ahhh, Nerd is just too awesome for words :D

The ride was cool, and the worky person was very friendly. He even said: “No dramas.” We all almost wet ourselves :P

Bid goodbye to everyone and walked to the gate. Then Hatter, M, E and I all got in Nerds moms Land Rover and she drove us to the art thing.

The teacher didn’t arrive for a while so M, E and I played Noughts And Crosses, Squares and Drew.

When the teacher finally arrived we helped set up the food – by collecting the masses of it from the canteen – and I went to collect my artwork.

People started arriving so we started looking around. We made M look at Nerd2’s nude sketches which was amusing to watch le facial expressions and M and Hatter listened to James Blunt: Back to Bedlam until Aeroplanes came on… :P needless to say I listened to that one. XD Looked at some more artwork as the room slowly filled up with people – still singing along flatly to the music. Ahhh, those people must have hated us. I accidentally let slip about my emotions problem because I ramble an awful lot :/ I made him “forget” so we’re just not going to let it come up in conversation.

Hatter introduced us to le new person who is pretty cool :D After the introduction we talked some more and looked at Fel’s work – EXTREMELY talented at art… I envy her. :P

Grouped up with the others and discovered I was on the art achievements board for creativity and something to do with I…. Meh. I was quite proud of that actually :) Anyway, we got picked up by Nerd’s dads Jaguar. :O awesome car :D He commented on my singing voice (because I’d been singing) which was… strange, but whatever :)

Got back to Nerds and discovered Ninja had joined us :P Hatter and I engulfed him (after hugging Nerd) and ate some margarita pizza. After Pizza and a cookie I climbed upstairs with my iPod and Ninja in tow and put on some music in Nerds room. The others joined as they finished their meals until most of us were in the bedroom. M, Hatter, Ninja and I on the bed and the rest on chairs/the floor/standing. People came and went – Ninja, H and S disappeared outside for a while until and movie was chosen: Scott Pilgrim v’s The World. :D Which is such an epic movie. Watched the first little bit downstairs but the TV kept playing up so instead we went back up and watched it there. About half way through Ninja put his arm around me which surprisingly wasn’t that awkward. I didn’t really care. Hatter and M kept having “moments” which I moved away from because they caused me to fell uncomfortable. And I felt that fate or whatever was mocking me saying: They have something you could never have… :/ I’m not blaming them at all…. I just didn’t really like it being right next to me. Had a mood swing and a flood of emotion – large emotional barrier breakdown. That sucked, especially when I wanted to enjoy the movie. Hatter and Ninja helped me and I shut it off again, although it was still stable. The movie ended and it was pretty cool :) Hatter and M had another moment then but I tried to shut that one out. The most bizarre thing happened though and I’m going to pretend that it didn’t happen. Ninja sat up with me and put his arm around me, then moved it down to my waist and pulled me into a awkward side hug. He didn’t let go afterthat and traced circles on my side. I don’t know whether I imagined it or whether it was because my emotional barriers were broken because of the earlier happenings but….. I think I got a little turned on? :/ FFS. Why does everything happen at the worst times?

Whatever. It didn’t happen so. Meh.

People started leaving. Hugged a few people goodbye, thanked Nerd again for his help during the day and his awesome party and walked out with Hatter and H. Got in the car (eventually) and drove home. Contemplated A LOT of things during that bus jourey :/ and a lot of memories too. Like how he used to hold me from behind and his breath tickled my ear, and then the nasty break up and that led on to ALL my breakups and mistakes… GAH. I just…. Yeah. I don’t know. I fail.

At home, I said hi to The Brother and then sorted my stuff out as The Mother arrived.

Talked to M, Ninja, Hatter and K on fb about different things. M – Cleughy and S and awkward situations. Ninja – declaration of “love” once again… ¬¬

"well i respect that but just to say it would be alot different with me than lachlan i will always make you feel like special and happy no matter what

and id try and spend as much time with u as much as we both can. and you would be able to trust me and u should now"

Hatter – songs and random stuff. K – the typical goings on of our week and stuff…. :P Less than 2 weeks until our holiday and only 3 weeks until I see him :D The word ‘Excited’ doesn’t even begin to describe it. Well, yeah. Kindof. That also means that Prom is getting ever closer – Next week to be exact :/ And I won’t enjoy it, whatever choice I make. :( Which is unfair. But hey. That’s life.

On the topic of prom – I’m visiting the dress makers Tomorrow. Joyous. ¬¬ Lets just hope I still fit in the dress à answer, probably not. Meh… what do I care anyway.

What a lovely day. As I said at the beginning – eventful. Went to bed at 01:14 on the Friday morning. How lovely. This can officially count as tomorrows blog too..... cool. Whatever, I'll still post for tomorrow. It's what I do. 

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

Number 32 - Induction Continued....

Woke up at 7 this morning when H's alarm went off. Got dressed super quick and packed my bags by 7:30 :) Went downstairs and watched the morning news with Cleughy, H, Nerd2 and le new person who roomed with Nerd2. Apparently nothing happened in the outside world while we were on the residential. What a let down. Set the chairs out before people started arriving. Talked until breakfast, I sat on Om because M and L were all over H and I wanted to get them out of my vision. ¬¬ Twas sickening really. H wore a really low top (lower than the day before) and therefore got all of the attention from the guys again. M's excuse was that he was annoyed with Hatter for not talking to him... I wanted to punch him in the face and kick him in the balls several times, seriously. The only thing that stopped me was the fact that I do still want to join 6th form (with a clean start) and that it was really public. URGH. L had no excuse so.... N, Om and I talked - me on Oms lap and N sat beside us. Those conversations were pretty awesome actually so it was a good start to the day. Unfortunately that didn't last long. When we were called for breakfast I sat with Om and some new people because (once again) the others filled up their table without me. Didn't really feel like eating much but ate a croissant anyway.
I was made to sit through three talks, in groups, and as luck would have it: I was split up from everyone else. Sat in some chairs after the third talk until the lunch bell rang. Couldn't be bothered to queue up for ages (knowing that I wouldn't be saved a space on the table) so I waited until everyone had collected their meal. Ate half a baguette and a flapjack. Sat with N (who arrived late out of the final talk), Cleughy, S and a newbie. N asked if I was ok again because I'd been "really quiet all morning". At least someone noticed me.

After lunch I was left with no-one to talk to so I sat on the floor around the corner and started writing my blog to really loud music. When we were asked to leave and walk to the uni, M finally noticed that I was missing, no-one else did. He offered to help he up off the floor but I was still pissed off with him so I got up by myself - and scraped my back in the process ¬¬.
N waited for me and we walked up to the uni together, talking about our hobbies. We got split into groups again. I was with Om. Had a couple of boring talks but quite an awesome "Team Activities" session (which our team won :P Yessssss. And therefore we were given a fluffy thingymabob XD). Om and I had this idea about "The Invasion of the Fluffy Minions!" which included absorption of people by cute little fluffymajigs :) In the final talk, our group drew a short geek called Lachlan, who was korean, spoke russian and took physics and ICT. LOL. :P

Once we were all reunited we walked back to the residential thingy to collect our bags and board the coach. I sat on my own (again) and continued to write my blog. H refused to let me borrow her headphones (even though she wasn't using them for the journey) so I had to listen to their "fun" for the entire journey.

The bus got back late so I had to literally run off the coach and down the headlands to get to dance. Hatters mom dropped off my stuff shortly after I arrived and so I got changed. I decided to get my leg warmers because of my blister and when I went to get them Hatter turned up. We talked for a little before S arrived. :) Miss called us in so yeah. Dance was fun I suppose. I didn't really try today though and I mucked up loads of the steps. The class ended and S left so Hatter and I had a deep chat about what went on in the Induction days and friendship groups. I'm glad that Hatter is suggesting a split because I really can't relate to H any more and the guys are just starting to piss me off. I just hope I fit in with the new people though :/ because Hatter and A have already made friends and they might think I'm weird. Meh.

The Father collected us, dropped Hatter off at hers and then went home. Ate half of dinner - Chicken Kiev and peas - before going upstairs to start my blogs and whatnot. Got undressed and just relaxed for the rest of the evening. Spoke to Ninja and O for a while but then it got late and they logged off.

I think tomorrow has the potential to be either a disaster or a success. Hopefully, if I stick with Hatter, I'll leave a very happy person. Otherwise, well, it will suck majorly. Meh. We'll see how it goes.

Over and out,

Hatter. xx

P.S. Damnit. Just realised that I will have to get up really early tomorrow because H is coming over at 8. Gah. That sucks a little. :/

Number 31 - Induction Course

Woke up this morning with a text saying: "Happy 8 Months" and to be honest, I wasn't happy. I really don't know what to do about it. Half of me just wants it to be over and done with and doesn’t care about anyone else’s feelings (that’s my selfish side...) and the other half doesn’t want to do anything about it until I'm 100% sure. AKA – I want to kill myself. I'm not going to let it go that far but this indecision is the difference between breaking up before prom (and possibly going as friends?) or waiting until afterwards and go the whole summer without seeing each other – hopefully helping him get over me. Still, I have to make a decision and I hate that. :(

Ok, so I got the school bus; which was odd and quiet – id forgotten the feeling of waiting for every morning, and without everyone to talk to it was pretty boring. :P

I got to school, met H, M and L at the octagon but they all then decided to get a Costa coffee. As I didn’t like coffee they left me as bag sitter. ¬¬ I listened to music on and off… People I knew drifted by now and then but didn’t stay very long. H, M and L finally arrived back 15 minutes late – meaning they’d left me for over 45 minutes… By that time I’d gone through all of their bags. The ‘outstanding’ items were:

L: A carton of milk and perfume.

H: Her entire room (literally – she is EXTREMELY materialistic)

M: His neon pink boxers and chequered pyjama bottoms (that matched the shorts he was wearing :P) So we all talked for a bit, eventually attracting everyone from the octagon , then at 10:00 we all shuffled round to the front of the octagon to mingle with the newbies. I finally saw N for the first time in years (yay!) which was a little awkward to start with but that passed :) We talked to another group (of girls) and about 3 of them actually stayed with us.

Eventually, we were beckoned into the 6^th form block and we sat there while waiting for the Group A coach to arrive. They did arrive and we all talked for a little while :P Nerd and I recited the WHOLE of Assassins Creed: Brotherhood literal trailer together and I did the Harry Potter one (just because I can) . Hatter arrived with her new friends (who I met later and were quite cool) and said a brief hello to us all. (I then reminded her of her 3 month anniversary so she climbed back over to give M a bigger hello :P). After socialising and whatnot Group B were sent into the canteen for an “Introductory Talk” which was slightly boring. H and I grabbed the timetable sheets and scribbled our names down quickly before buzzing off to the first session: Chem. I am definitely going to take it for A Level – it was really interesting. Next was Math… and I MAY have been persuaded to take it… O.o IKR! I’ve been saying for the last two years that I am looking forward to NOT having to do it, but now I'm given the opportunity to drop it, I think I might miss it… odd. Ahh well.

Afterwards was lunch. Nearly everyone went into town (again). Through this time H stayed so I talked to X, Om, H Nerd2 and some new people for the start of lunch. Being the idiot I am, I forgot to bring both lunch AND money which meant I was basically screwed :P

H convinced Om to hug me for hurting my feelings which means she has some sort of awesome power :P twas awesome. :D There was a funny episode in which H and the other girls thought they should go talk to this person who was sitting on their own in the common room but couldn’t summon the guts to do it so Nerd2 just looked up from his book and called across “Hey mate. These girls want to talk to you but they’re too scared to go over. Would you please come here so they stop annoying me?” The humility this caused them drove them to sit with the boy, but I was too busy laughing at them all :P Nerd2 and I rejoined Om and X back at the octagon until most of the people returned. We moved to the common room ans played Cheat for the rest of lunch. Next talk I had was Blodge – consisting of a talk on why we SHOULDN’T do it and a series of statements designed to scare us off (and even after that I'm still planning on taking it :D) Then psychology talk which as absofudgemuffinlutely AMAZING! XD I am definitely planning on doing it for A Level. No question about it :)

Got to the common room and acquired our horse shoe spot. Played some more cheat before people from Group A left. Did cheat some more until we all got slightly bored of it. People began to chat and switch places to get to the people they wanted to chat to. I ended up on the floor and no-one gave me a second glance really, bar L and N who asked if I was ok a couple of times. When I couldn’t really take any more I just upped and left, only pausing to tell L and N I was going to the loo, although by the look on their faces I don’t think either of them believed me. (Even though N doesn’t even know about my cutting problem OR the L situation.) Anyway, I cut myself 3 times (a little deeper than usual) and came out feeling much better.

Played the Ball Game with N and I on one team and M, CB and The Giant One on the other. After 2 bracelets were broken and no-one won (as usual, although N and I did keep the ball for a majority of the time :D), we stopped because we were called to get on the coach – which had finally arrived.

The journey was shit. Sat on my own with L and H behind me and listened to depressing music for the whole of the journey. Fun. (Note the sarcasm).

Had another talk briefly, played cheat (again) and then we were allocated our rooms – H and I together as usual. Came back down and met everyone in the “socialising area”. Watched a game of pool until dinner. Everyone rushed off and sat together on their OWN table so N and I sat at another one. Ate dinner, Lasagne, wasn’t very eventful. Meh.

Finally let back out – watched some more pool. Got into a really interesting convo with N when out of nowhere L just appeared, stepped in between us and asked me a question, essentially terminating our conversation. And then every time N tried to position himself in the group again, L moved and blocked him out. That REALLY pissed me off, because he’d been ignoring me basically the whole evening and as soon as I started to have fun he dragged me down again. GAH!

Had two talks – from the upper 6^th form and the teachers. They were both a little boring and meh. Ahh well. Played a game of doubles pool with H, S and I against L and The Giant One. I was the only one on my team who could hit the balls. (S and H struggled to hit the white ball, let alone the coloured ones.) Needless to say we got slaughtered. :P Then M and CB had a game. Om rested his head on my head for a while which was quite funny :D We had a little talk about pointless (and sick) topics but then again, what should I have expected – it is Om after all XD Anyway, H kept resting on the side of the pool table – showing a humungous amount of cleavage (saying it was to distract them), which L and M commented on A LOT (her job of distraction worked a treat, lucky her ¬¬) until I covered it, floored her and told her to stop. This then brought on “Giggle-gasms” – named by L in his ‘Austwawia’ accent: causing more fits of laughter.

After getting bored of H, I moved round the corner to talk to Om and some new people. Unfortunately everyone decided to follow me and played a card game. I joined their game of Go Fish for a little until it got a bit later and most people cleared off to bed. Including L (who ‘forgot’ to say goodnight to me). Leaving just N and I to talk about TOBUSCUS some more and watch Youtube clips. That was awesome.

M came out, looking for a charger for his phone because the battery died, but he ended up staying out with N and I. M started talking about L and I, and then Ninja and I and then ultimately, US. I was surprised, but he said that he regretted leaving me... O.o and then said “I didn’t realise what an awesome person you were.” Which both touched me and pissed me off that he hadn't realised it 4 years earlier and caused me so much pain for the next 4 years as I crushed on him worse than before. I didn't ever get over him and I think a pert of me never will :/ Ahhh well, it's done now and I have to move on. For both M and Hatters sake. I actually feel a little sorry for N who had to listen to those conversations without a clue what was going on.

At 23:00 we were sent to bed, so after a hug from both the guys, we parted. I went upstairs and readied myself for bed. Started blogging not long after 11 and it took me until 00:30 to complete it. Full day huh? :P

I’m really confuzzled right now. I get attraction and ignorance in big glomps at the most awkward of times. GAH! I just don’t know what the hell is going on right now. My life is FUCKED! D:

Tomorrow were going to a University, perhaps I’ll socialise more then? Who knows? Certainly not me. Lets just wait and see what tomorrow brings…

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. Please, please, please don’t let me cut again. I'm not too sure who that is addressed to, probably my subconscious (I hope you're listening), but I hate that I need to do it to be happy, and even then it only gives me a burst of happiness before bringing me down to a lower low later.

P.P.S. I have also calculated that I have a potential of 4 people feeling some sort of attraction towards me. And now M comes along and admits to having some sort of attraction to me. WHY AT THIS SPECIFIC TIME?! Argh, my life is just shit. A god up/down there wants to destroy me, and it’s partially working. :( 

Number 30 - Last Exam Ever (Well, this year...)

WHOOP! I am officially DONE. :D Goodness, I am so glad that they're over. Now I can just relax and do whatever I want... Wait, no I can't. I have to do house work until we go on holiday ¬¬

Still, the exam was ok I suppose :) Better than I was expecting. Before it, H and I ran around the school (stupidly) to give back textbooks and after we arrived back at the octagon we were literally screaming for our lunches :P

Lots of other guys arrived and we all had a good talk until the time arrived for us to take the exam. We were all sweating like crazy and reeeeeeeeeeeeeeally tired. I just hope that didn't affect the exam too much.

We were let out (rather cool-y: The invigilator literally just said "off you go then" and we all ran out :D) and met up at the octagon. Said goodbye to people and went our separate ways. Ninja, M and I all walked up to glebe together which was pretty epic :D and then Ninja and I parted with M and walked to his road. Cleughy passed us on the way to Ninjas too and actually met us at Ninjas later. So yeah, Nin and I walked and talked about my cutting - because it had gotten too hot to keep my gloves on and he already knew anyway.... and then we got to his and I went to a friends house who lives next door to him (because my mum spent the day there sunbathing with her friend there). I sat with them and talked for a little while. Ninja came out of his house next door (topless :O :O :O) and started doing awesome ninja stuff on the trampoline. Mother and her friend started commenting about how I should go and trampoline with him but... I didn't. They went inside when it started to rain but I stayed outside on the sunbed. It was relaxing. Eventually I had to pack the sunbeds away because it was raining too heavily so I resorted to lying on the trampoline, and eventually bouncing on it. By then Ninja had gone in so I didn't make a fool of myself while jumping, plus I didn't wear a particularly supportive bra today, that would have been embarrassing. Of course he could have been watching from his window which is both creepy and strange... Let's hope not.

AAAAAAnyway, I got a bit off track there. I stopped bouncing when I realised it was 20 past and I had a music lesson at 4:30. I alerted The Mother and we ran out of the house and into the car.
The music lesson was ok. She was being nice to me today so that was good.

Got home. The Mother scootled off to the gym so I got myself a quiche and some cucumber for tea. :)
Brownies afterwards which was cool I suppose. We just played games to tire them out :P Although it tired me out more than them XD

Skipped faith group today and got straight home to wash my hair and pack my bag ready for tomorrow, which I both am and am not looking forward to. I am because I'm going to see N tomorrow and because I'll see everyone again - as school is my socialising place. I am not because I'm going to see N tomorrow (yes, I know I'm weird like that, it's just that I'm nervous. I haven't seen him in so long and I have no idea what to expect. Plus he'll have changed and we might not be friends any more, and I'm terrible at making friends anyway, Hatter always helps with the whole friend thing.) and because it's going to he hot and we're just going to have to sit through talks in stuffy classrooms and I have to wear gloves and jeans :( Still, I'll probably enjoy it eventually.

So, got ready for bed and then talked to O for a bit. Re-did my nails because I picked off the nail varnish today because I was nervous. Meh.

That's basically my day so far. Good night.

Over and out,

Gloves. xxe

Number 29 - Revision and Babysitting

SOOOOOOOOOOO!

Today I got up at about 9 to eat eggs and bacon, Nom! I then spent an hour and a half clearing my room entirely until everything was neat and tidy :)

The Father called me to do some german revision so I put on some sun lotion and sat outside, writing out verbs and words I didn't know on a sheet of paper, over and over again. Eventually I had a break and did a little flute practice and watched a bit of transformers before dads friends' family arrived at about 2:30.

I sorted the nibbles and whatever and entertained Alice (the oldest of the two - 4ish) who was shy to begin with but after I pushed the swing and showed her the tortoises and fish she became a little more friendly. We all ate a scrummy roast dinner and then between the main and pudding Alice and I went outside again to look at the animals and play on the swing. She reminded me of myself when she pushed herself on the root of the tree and then kicked the branch when she swung. That's exactly what I used to do :) So we had pudding - Chocolate Brownie Cake (YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS) and then I followed Harley (the little boy who's about 2ish) into my room to find the hoover (he has a fascination with cleaning things :P) So while he played with the hoover for the rest of the evening, Alice and I went onto my bed and played with the toys :) I gave her some of my bracelets and stuff and then they had to leave.

I continued watching Transformers and then talked to O for a while - He found my book on wattpad... so he teased me about that for the rest of the evening. The Mother told me to go to bed so I said bye to O and finished watching Transformers, then decided to go to bed.

Urgh, german exam tomorrow :(  I'm really not looking forward to it. I've done as much revision as possible but I still don't feel prepared.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. Something I just realised - The only reason I cut is to take away the deeper pain :/ Ahhh well, it'll go eventually.

Number 28 - A Conversational Day

Woke up at 9:45 by mother banging on the door. She'd been locked out for 10 minutes but no-one had been awake.... oops :P Turned on laptop and uploaded my blog from last night. Noticed K was on skype for the first time in ages so had a chat with him about gaming and what we're going to do when I arrive and such until 10:30. :) Got up properly - ate, dressed showered whatever - and then started revision with my dear father.

Had a break and sorted my nails while The Father went to collect The Brother from music school. Started again a little while later and waited for dad to return. Had lunch once everyone had arrived home and then read some stuff on Wattpad. Spoke to Ninja for a little while and then re-did some of my nails.

Talked to K some more in another break until my rentals went out. Watched a couple of youtube videos. Played some flute. The Brother made pasta salad so we sat and watched Jackass 2 while eating. I swear it was the most disgusting movie ever made. I finished eating and went back upstairs and fb'd. Talked to Nerd2 on fb and O on skype. He showed me this awesome trailer for a new Alice in Wonderland game.... it is AMAZING! The Game Link. He had a rant about his favourite game - "Little Big Planet" and then he started telling me about the time he got scared by a "talking dog" :P which turned out to be an avatar on webcam. lol. (This conversation was started by a bra, not intentionally, popping onto my screen.... lol) So yeah.... talked for a very long time.... and then... meh. Anyway, much more hilarity until the rentals got back and removed the internet :( So yeah. I decided to go to sleep.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

Number 27 - The Party Predicament

Woke up late this morning. I was supposed to be awake at 6 so I could help mom with the Olympic tickets but she didn't wake me so I ended up getting of bed at 8:30.

Went on a large hunt for my braces. Couldn't find them so had breakfast and got dressed. Mon was really annoyed with me for losing them. :/ To make her happy I worked on my german constantly until I did my examy thing. She asked to see my calender because of things and we went up and looked at it. That's when I saw my braces next to it :D I was very happy about that. :P

Did my exam and by that it was 5 to 12 so I rushed round to Hatters.... Only to realise I had forgotten the shoes. I tried on her dress - it is amazing and she wore it to her baptism. I'm really worried about wearing it now because if I mess it up then..... I'm screwed and I'll feel utterly guilty :/ Still, we went back to mine so Hatter could try shoes and sort accessories and stuff. We tried to find stuff to hide my arm... and settled on a ribbon :/ Not too sure how that's going to be ok... but hey. If needs be I'll just keep my arms by my sides.

So I kept Hatter for lunch until she had to depart and walk her dog. (She forgot her keys so we said goodbye again in the street when I gave them to her :P)

I did my german again. And then a lot of flute practice. Had a very long shower and washed my hair then did my nails. Did some more german and wrapped the present. The Brother was complaining that he was hungry so I cooked the pizza for both of the men as The Mother had disappeared to the gym. I was really worrying about my gloves predicament and just hoped that it wasn't noticeable. :/

Got ready for the party and got picked up by Hatter and H. We all chatted in the car (until Hatters mom needed to concentrate) and arrived at the party about on time. :) We hugged everyone and then did a couple of nerdy dances on the sidelines. Not many people were dancing so everyone hung back. That was until M and CB ran up to the front and started raving. Obviously this encouraged everyone else in the "Nerdy" group to start dancing, which we did.... badly :P After about 10 minutes after a few more hugs and songs most people were there and the party got into full swing. Hatter, Zilla, H, CB, M, Nerd, Nerd2, Cleughy, S and I were all in one group of ravinosity and it was awesome XD Eventually we got tired and took a break. I went with Hatter to the loos to find a bin and sort our dresses. We came back in and did a bit more dancing. W joined us and was utterly hilarious with his dancing. :P It basically went on like that. H and I did a little "sexy" dancing which was quite amusing and Nerd and I did a bit of ballroom dancing in the middle of a rap song :D
My feet started to hurt so I removed my shoes and hairclip - it kept falling out. I grabbed some food as we were all ushered into the hall to sing "Happy Birthday" and I must say it was the most out of tune song I have ever heard. :P Lots of people went back out to cool off but W and I did some more nerdy dancing and ruffling of hair until "Aeroplanes" came on. For some reason I got really depressed at that point. I sat on the edge and watched CB and M rave to the song for a while and then it changed to "Love The Way You Lie" at that point I started crying. It was then that CB and M decided to dance in front of me... so I ran away to the toilets. I had a little cry and let everything out in there before entering the hall again. I noticed that everyone was sitting down in a circle around the table that we had aquired so rather than disturb the mood with my presence I sat in the corner and watched. Obviously M had figured something was wrong when I left in a hurry so came to sit with me and tried to cheer me up. "Price Tag" was on - a little in joke where he used to annoy me with that song when I wouldn't shut up :P - He sang that to me as it played and that cheered me up a little, even though the song still got on my nerves. Cleughy joined us after a while and I decided I should probably stop feeling sorry for myself for no reason. I had a little talk with M outside and that made me feel a little better. He's a good listener. :) After we had finished we went over and joined the others, but they then wanted to dance so I sat in the corner again, this time with Nerd2. We had a little chat and stuff. M came and lay on the table in front of me and started "dancing with his arms and legs" which was funny to watch. H found us and a good song came on so we all got on the tables and danced a little. I put my shoes back on and danced a little bit more. Hatter was concerned about me so dragged me outside to ask if I was ok, which I answered yes to. The Nerdy Gang joined us and the girls lay on the floor for some reason... I think they thought it was cold or something, though Nerd and I thought it looked a bit like a seance. :P While everyone was distracted I took the time to slip away to the toilets again. I had my wallet with me for some reason... which led to me getting my blade out.... :/ After I was done I felt much better though :) I joined the others in funky dances and enjoyed myself. :P M and I did some "twisting", which is the most funny thing you will ever see, to that "sticks and stones" song XD and Will and I did a bit of raving. I removed my shoes and after doing some more circling with Hatter (which seems to be "our dance style") the Macarena came on :D Everyone joined in for that which was fun. Shortly after - "Whip My Hair" came on, so I did a little "whipping of le hair" :D I love doing that. I got a little applause from W and we did another rave for quite a long time. I went into the food area and got a sandwich and gave my feet a rest, then put my shoes on again and stole Nerd2's cravat. :D After which he did a little scary moment. I turned away at the last second though, so it was fine :) Zilla groped me for the zillionth time in the evening, so I groped her back, and she groped Nerd2 so I groped Nerd2 so he groped me and I gave him the tie thing back. That was fun. I took it back a little while later - after dancing with a couple more people, CB got a little too close for my liking - and H grabbed me away to take a picture of me in the cravat. When I tied it back round Nerd2's neck he grabbed my shoulders.... and yeah. Meh. I pulled away and we had a little "twisting" dance. He's much better than M :P lol. Uhhh.... Raved with W until the end basically. Joined the guys in some "gangster dancing" which was hilarious :P The DJ ended the party with that "Dollar" song. M and I put on posh accents and changed the lyrics to "Pound" :) Hatter and M had a loving moment so I left them to that for a little, while I gathered my things. H and I joined them until the end of the song. Although W insisted on continuing singing it.... I scolded him for that, although I had forgotten what a great voice he has. There was lots of hugging and such then we headed outside. Twas raining. :( We said goodbye to everyone again and got into the car.
H and Hatter were in the back together, looking at pictures and talking which made me feel a little left out :/ Meh, we dropped off H and then Hatter. I stumbled down the drive and ran up to my room, wincing a little, to open my laptop. I got undressed and started writing the account of my night on my blog.

Tomorrow I'm going to see what the pictures are like. This was definitely a great party but it was a shame I couldn't stop thinking about what was going to happen between L and I :( M helped a lot tonight, which I was grateful for and W lifted my spirits too. Hatter was generally my happiness bubble and I was glad she was here tonight.

I have to revise all day tomorrow which I'm not looking forward to. :/ I'm going to fail my reading test. No question about it, which sucks majorly.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. I think I may be addicted to cutting again, which is slightly worrying. But I'm going to stop by Prom and then I won't be able to do it again for the summer. And who knows, perhaps I won't be depressed any more so I won't need to :)

Number 26 - Just Keep Walking

TODAY! :D

Well.... What did I do today? Hmmm....

Nothing much in the morning. I was very disciplined with my german revision and got a couple of pages of vocabulary memorised. That was good I suppose.

AT 11:00 THE POTTERMORE ANNOUNCEMENT WAS REVEALED!!! :D Many discussions about it on Facebook immediately followed the revelation which were quite interesting :)

Ate lunch and The Mother left to pick up The Brother from school to take him to his saxaphone lesson. (He forgot last week, like the numpty he is, and got the bus but today he remembered.) I met Hatter at the posty things with le dog and we went for a very long dog walk almost to pitchley and back. During which much epicosity happened. We started our Vlog, and had many hilarious moments, as well as some very deep and meaningful moments where I think I may have been a bit too harsh :/ I just don't want her to end up like me :( Meh. Still, twas a very epical walk.
We returned to her house and had a quick look at dresses and dances and such. (Her dress is gorgeous. :P I want :D )

We then made our way to my house where we sorted our vlog and ate biscuits and looked through my dresses briefly before Hatter had to depart. I bid her adeu and then got to work on my german for a little while. Then I checked my facebook and such. The Mother and Brother returned home and I started work on my bathroom again. O and N onlined themselves (N for the first time in aaaaaaaaaages so obviously we had a very long discussion which was utterly fun). I didn't talk to O much, souly because suddenly there were an overwhelming number of people who wanted to talk to me: Hatter, Ninja, N, M, O and a person at the octagon who is awesome at art and carries a briefcase around with him.... he shall bec called..... Nerd2. Anywho, they all wanted to talk to me and I was struggling to keep up so I closed O and Ninja and after a while Nerd2 and M disappeared so it was manageable again.

Went for dinner and ate very quickly. Although I've lost my braces and I'm not too sure where I put them :/ That sucks. Felt like Cinderella when mom made me scrub the floors and wipe the windows and stuff :P It was actually kind of fun actually :)

Got into bed and started writing the blog as well as arranging times to visit Hatter tomorrow. Spoke to O for a little while (half way through he had to have his bath..... ¬¬ :P ) and then Ninja for a little while and then Hatter. Watched a couple of youtube videos too. "The Station" is cool, loads of internet-famous youtubers have joined together :D

Ok... so, that's me for the day. :)

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

Number 25 - A Manic Day of Epicosity

Went to the cinema today.

Got up, had a nice long relaxing shower after my mother had disappeared to the gym and then ate my breakfast. Got dressed and then started listening to music that O told me I should listen to. Also I watched some more of the Smurfs episodes. Hatter arrived and we had a mini manic Harry Potter Fest before X arrived to wizz us away.

We dropped off X in the leisure village so he could meet up with E for a date (ooer) and then his mom drove us to the cinema. When we arrived, The Mother informed us that the movie that we were meant to watch hadn't arrived so we decided to come back later and watch Bridesmaids.

We went into town and shopped in TK Max for some T-Shirts for L and X and Nerd for their birthdays as they're all pretty close together. We found one for L and X (which were epic) but not Nerd. To decide on our purchases we sat down in the dog cushion section because we couldn't find any chairs. :P Hatter and I then left my mother and went for a little browse. We did plan on going to get Maccy D's straight away but eventually decided against it and shopped in Peackocks, M&S,Chamelion and The Works first. In The Works we discovered the most epical book for our friend Nerd EVER! A book entirely devoted to the Bat-mobile. :D We purchased that and then walked along the street towards MacDonalds. Hatter had been texting M for a while about why he was at school and such and then suggested that they come into town. A couple of minutes after she had sent it we saw them walking down towards us. We then had a quick chat (I felt a bit weird talking to L - it was just slightly awkward knowing it's probably going to end, and I couldn't really talk to M much either because once I "dump" L he's going to hate me for a while - he told me so himself :/ which sucks... anyway) and all bought something from MacDonalds and walked towards the shopping centre (after slurping some of M's milkshake a couple of times (No, don't even think that. You are sick....) and getting our own personal bags of food(!) ;P), all the while complaining that we were fat. :D

They shuffled off in the opposite direction and Hatter and I walked back to the car, arriving at the perfect moment :P Drove back to the cinema and watched the film "Bridesmaids" XD I swear it was even funnier than "The Back Up Plan" Hatter and I were in fits of giggles all the way through and at some points the main characters reminded me of us entirely. Especially the ending :)

We came out (ooer) and had a quick outside tour of the Park Hotel (where prom is being held) and then dropped Hatter off at her house. I got back and started getting ready for my uncles 50th party. I tried on loads of things but settled on a long blue vest top and white skinneys. The only problem was mom was refusing to let me wear my gloves :/ (N/B: Remind me to get some "dressy" long gloves because the only 'acceptable' ones in my mothers eyes are too short D:) Eventually I just had to keep my cardigan on the whole night, which sucked a little because it was hot in there.

The Mother had to go to the garage to get the car part fitted before we drove all the way to Northampton. I was left at home alone until The Brother returned back from school and then I had to hassle him to get ready too. Mom finally returned home and we picked up The Uncle and my cousin. Went to Red Hot, and the food was excellent. I didn't eat much (but I never do anyway) because I felt a little sick (probably the popcorn and fatty food I'd had earlier ;P). The birthday cake was quite funny because of name mix-ups and such but in the end the event was fun. Went back to their house for a little while afterwards and ate a few Thornton's chocolates (nom) while watching tennis.

Finally got home and started listening to music and watching a few Youtube videos. Remembered to write my blog at the last second but the internet was switched off before I completed it. Stayed awake for a while after feeling sick and depressed (listened to depressing songs including "My Heart Will Go On" on loop :'( ) That wasn't a nice feeling at all.

Eventually tried to get to sleep constantly thinking about loads of stuff and such. I'm really worried about Prom now.

Tomorrow, Ninja might be coming round :/ Not too sure how that's going to turn out. Hopefully tomorrow I'll get to go on a good long walk with The Twin and just splurge some stuff out of my system.

I've also realised that my body is in some sort of state of "self defence" hence my 'unfeelingness' of feelings. I think it's just my brains way of coping. Unfortunately this means that when I get an overwhelming emotion it all comes flooding out for a while - so when I become depressed I am MEGA sad, almost suicidal. :/ It's worrying actually, because I don't really understand how to undo it. And I don't know whether I want to. Living without much emotion makes life much easier - even though it means I can't comfort people or relate to them properly. Maybe I'll learn to control it or something. I don't know. I've also noticed that my anger is returning. I keep snapping at people and punching things. I want to blame it on all the stuff going on at the moment and my emotion thing but I reckon it's just me being a bitch. And I can't help it. I hate myself after I snap at people or make false assumptions and judge people because of it. It sets me into a deeper level of Low. And that sucks muchly.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. Sorry for the rant today. I just got a bit.... Meh. I just..... urgh. neqionbrwqeionireowbnrweiovrweiobhnBVRFEWIOBNTWIOBJTRVWIOMNFIUVBRIOWEJNnbufioewnbowinbtfwio. FUCKINGSHITTYCRAPBOLLOCKSTOSSINGWANKER! I really hate myself right now. :(

Number 24 - Spring Cleaning

Pretty boring day actually. 

Woke up early today when I should have had a little bit of a lie in ¬¬ all because I forgot to turn off my alarm so at 7:00 "Love the way you lie" started blaring from my phone which (obviously) was just outside of my room in a bag. Yeah. Not fun.

Bleary eyed I turned it off and took it back up to my bed to wait for the next alarm to go off 3 minutes later (put on just to make sure I had woken up with the previous alarm and keep me from falling asleep). After I had stopped that alarm I tried to go back to sleep but, alas, it was not meant to be. Mom called me down for crumpets so I ate and dressed and went for a walk with The Mother and X's mom. :) That was good. Nice and refreshing, I haven't been on a long walk like that in ages. :P

Got home and started tidying my room to loud cheesy music. Part way through Hatter told me that she'd missed her bus :/ I really wanted to help her and walk to school with her but The Mother wouldn't allow it ¬¬ Humph. After apologising to Hatter I had to get back on with my room and although the music was fun to work to I really wanted to talk to someone while I worked. I texted Hatter but she was in town by then so I just had to get on with it.

Ate while mom was out with a friend and watched Family Guy. Meh. Carried on with room. No-one was online so I couldn't talk to anyone.

Later The Brother arrived home and shortly after - as suspected - O started talking to me. I carried on tidying while he talked. Ate dinner. Carried on talking to O. Had a typing war and I made fun of his eating habits. He is seriously spoilt. We showed each other pictures from our trips in years 6,7 and 8. That was fun. His hair was like an afro back then. :P After "hmmmmmm" wars - and him proving how camp he could be we stopped talking.

Although EPIC QUOTE: Moi:"Why did your mother come in?" O:"She wanted to know why my chair was on the floor." --->(From previous happenings - he broke his chair and threw it across the room) Moi:"So what did you tell her?" O:"It fainted." :P I was giggling for like 3 minutes afterwards. :D

Then I went to bed. Literally... No reading or anything. I was just totally shattered. Twas the most unexciting evening ever. Plus mom doesn't want me to talk to O any more because it's "getting on her nerves"? Ahh, well. I don't think I'll talk to him much after school ends anyway.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

Number 23 - Test for Deutch and Faith

Sooo.... Today, I had my german exam. Hatter and I arrived at school we all talked for a while about the upcoming exam. Everyone kept asking what Hatter was doing at school if she wasn't doing german and by the time we were ready to go in she was getting frustrated. :P

I didn't think that the exam itself was that bad. We all talked about it afterwards... I've failed miserably. :P No-one put the same answers as me so..... I'm screwed XD

After that. Hatter returned from talking to her old english teacher and after O made a quick appearance (with his buddys who started talking about my drawing of O I did the other day) everyone cleared off. Cleugh came and sat with me for a bit while I drew and then Ninja turned up. They started talking about cars until Cleugh had to go to his logistics lesson.

Ninja and I talked for a while and I did a few more drawings. He looked at a few and then noticed my gloves had slipped down. :/ We had a chat about that and he lectured me on how I could die and blah blah blah. We also talked a bit about L and I. O turned up between changeover and we all had a quick chat. O went off to logistics and Ninja asked me to come with him to see if his math teacher was there. He wasn't so we went back to the bench. Had a few more little chats about trust and whatnot and overall it wasn't that awkward. Hatters "dad" came over to say hi before lunch. And then O turned up.

O went off to get his lunch (but left his bag... the fool :D I stole his keys, wallet (empty :( ) and a packet of crisps.) Ninja declared he had to go home so we hugged goodbye and I had a little nap while waiting for O to return.

O finally arrived and checked what I'd stolen. We inspected a few of his key rings and he told me a couple of stories about his padlock keys before I had to leave. (While the stories were being told some jerks from his year did a couple of wolf whistles ¬¬ Immature.... wotsits! :/ ) I bid him farewell and said hi to my "cousin" in the year above :) before leaving school and going home.

I went straight onto my computer and Fb'd a few things and watched a couple of youtube videos that The Nerd told me to watch (they're awesome btw) and then tried to complete my DofE Presentation. :/

Visited Win for a few hours after I couldn't get hold of people for information. Had a chat with her. She said she was going to eat the chocolate bunny if Hatter didn't collect it by the end of the week. After talking for about an hour we went home and I played some flute.

Cancelled flute lesson. Hadn't picked the flute up in 6 weeks so I was slightly rusty and there was no point in going as I hadn't practised my tune. Carried on with my DofE Presentation and FINALLY got it finished. Made dinner and quickly ate it - half a quiche, scrumptious :P - and got ready for Brownies XD They heart me so :) We made vegetables for Mr. Mcgreggers garden today (for the flower festival :P) And then I went to faith group for the first time in weeks!!! :D That was fun. Lots of coffee, bible fights, kidneys and muffins to name but a few private jokes ;) lol. Thing is, I still enjoy faith group but not like I used to. I'm hoping that Soul Survivor will help me again like last year. Also, I've started getting angry again. Like, super angry, for the first time since last SS. :/ I don't know whether it's because my faith in Christianity is fading or whether I'm just becoming as insecure as I was before. I still believe in God and everything but I... I don't know. It's more like just God and nothing else about the Christian faith and the bible and whatever. Meh. I'm sure I'll come to understand it in time. :)

After getting back after much hilarity at faith group, I went online and started talking to O for a short while. We talked about pointless stuff really. Twas fun. He tried (and failed) to make me feel awkward so that I would stutter. :P I didn't. But yeah. That was cool.

And finally, I felt really bad that I wasn't there for Hatter today. :/ She called and asked me to go out but I had brownies :( I wished that I could have skipped brownies today, she sounded like she really needed my help. I've made a promise to myself that next time that happens I'll drop everything and go to her because she's always there for me when I need her.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. I'm going for a walk with The Mother in the morning past the leisure village. It'll tone my legs but I have to get up early. :/ Oh the things you have to do to get into your prom dress... :P

Number 22 - To Sail or Not To Sail? ARGH.

FATHERS DAY! ¬¬ and so naturally The Brother woke me up at 8 on a FREAKING SUNDAY! Sorry, I just wasn't very amused, and neither was dad XD

Anyways we gave him some slippers and a tie and then all traipsed downstairs for breakfast. The Father stole moms kindle and had a quick read about Sir (sorry - Lord) Alan Sugar before nomming his breakfast in bed.

I then had a shower and washed my hair while listening to awesome music. It only took 15 mins!!! That's like a world record for me :D

I got dressed and started my german revision. :( Which meant going through my listening test again and almost falling asleep for the second time. We marked that and I helped The Brother with his math homework :) circle theorums - oh how I heart thee. :P

Had a quick break, uploaded chapter 7 of my book onto wattpad. Not that many people are reading it :/ ahhh well. Doesn't mater. It's only there so if my computer crashes and erases the memory (god forbid that ever happens! D:) then my story is still safe :) The Back Up Plan (not the film, although that brings back, memories :P)

Yeah, so, I went back down and started memorising german vokab :( Das war nicht so gut!)

Talked to K and N for a little. Did a little drawing - o.O Very supprised at what my mind came up with. I want to shoot it sometimes. MAKE UP YOUR MIND! Urgh! You're so annoying sometimes! Why won't you leave me and my heart alone? Yeah, I know why. You revel in my MISERY!!! GAH! Calm. Sorry.

I think I just did a Hatter...... *Grins sheepishly*

Anyways. After drawing I ate :) toast is very NOM worthy. XD

Did some more german revision :/ Did that pretty much the whole day and it really tired me out.

Eventually I was allowed a break near tea time so just before nomming I went on Fb. I'd read a post on my wall from O earlier in the day but didn't understand what it meant so after he initiated a conversation on skype I asked him about it. Turns out he wants me to go sailing with him in two weeks... What?! Where did this come from? And how the hell do I respond to that? We both left for tea time and when I returned he explained the details to me. I said yes... So... I'm going sailing with him, at Cransley on the 2nd/3rd? Gah. I have no idea what to do? Perhaps I'll ask if Hatter can come along too... :) She's always wanted to go sailing. :P

Anyways. Had a very long chat with O. He teased me with minstrels and I teased him about his bath. Did some more drawing, and at this rate I'm probably going to have to get a new sketch pad :P lol. We had a "funny face fight" and compared teeth which was interesting. He said he'd pop by at lunch and see us all at the octagon tomorrow so... that's going to be a tad awkward.

Not really looking forward to tomorrow. :/ As well as the german exam I'm wondering whether I'll be allowed to wear my gloves because if not, well... There are quite a few of them now so they're kinda noticeable now and it might raise a few unwanted questions :/ Gah. Plus the car Isn't exactly in top notch so it might break down which is worrying, especially when I really can't miss this exam. Anyways. Mleh. I'm sure twill all be fine. :) Ach, also, just remembered that I was planning to break up with L (again) tomorrow.... Awww! I really don't want to do it now :/ He'll just be so devastated :( Ok, you can do this.... Ok, so you can't but you're going to try anyways. In fact... I'll do it next Monday, after the exams are over. Yes. Next week.)

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

Number 21 - Thank You For The Music :)

Today! Was very musical (as you can probably tell by the title :P)

First of all: Music Theory Exam. Twas ok I guess. Had an awesome chat for an hour with two friends - (H's) J his buddy who also did the music exam. He was texting K at the time and ended up telling her that he gave me a very pervy hug that included: gropage, fondling, clothing removal, and sexual gestures :P LOL. She replied with the words "She's mine. Hands off." XD That was funny. :D

Went home and talked to O for a while, which was fun. But then I had to go because The Father wanted me to come along to The Brothers music lesson so that he could test me on my German. GAH! Exam on Monday! Anyways, I almost fell asleep while listening to the tape. Literally, I was fighting to keep my eyelids open! :P lolidge.

So yeah, got back home and talked to O for a VERY long time, until dinner in fact. :) We had a long discussion about music and singing and exchanged a few songs that we thought the other person might like. Which was fun and followed my Theme of the Day (not that I have a theme of the day) XD Yep, after dinner I talked to O again and started my blog. Did a lot of german :/ because of the upcoming exams. Uhhh, read a bit. OOOOH and put up a picture on Fb of me with short (gingeryblondeish) hair. :) That was fun :P

Yep, a very musically themed day. :) And overall a good one I suppose. I told mom about the whole "L" situation and she told me all about her past boyfriends and how she broke up with a couple of them. That was quite an interesting conversation.... and now I still don't know what to do. She says not to do it before Prom but I don't know if I can "last" that long. :/ Ahhh, well. Only time will tell.

Also. After doing several more drawings and getting ideas from O for them (and nomming on coco pops :D yayness!!!) we hit the conversation topic of: TRUST. This resulted in him helping me a little with my trust issues and him almost shutting down or blocking me out. :/ He refused to tell me what it was about and said that he could tell me... but he couldn't. I didn't understand but left him to think about it while I updated the blog. He seemed really down about it and I hope that he feels better about it soon :)

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

Number 20 - It's FRIDAY!

HELLO!

Quite an awesome day actually :) Did a couple of theory tests in the morning along with some german revsion before mom declared she was going to the gym. So...... I went on YOUTUBE! Because I'm cool like that and I'm going to fail all of my exams..... yeah. So I was online and started chatting to Hatter who invited me out for a walk with her and le dog. So I quickly made meself some toast and milk (no I didn't make the milk. >.> Some people....) That was yummy. Hatter called while I was eating. I had to quickly finish and get dressed to meet her in 5 mins. We went for a quick walk but turned back when it started raining. We went back to Hatters and she sorted her blog posts while I read her journal (the case is amazingly soft!!! :D So I rubbed it on my face for a few minutes :P) That brought back a few memories :/

We headed back to mine to watch some Youtube videos and stuff. We looked at loads of them and then decided to start our Vlog today so... yeah. We got sorted and set everything up which went a bit strange at times but eventually we did it. :) It was fun. I am now in the process of editing it so yeah.... Fun. :D Hatter had to leave and I was going to go with her but then The Mother returned and I had to stay for my Theory lesson.

Lesson was ok. Got home and then talked to O and Hatter for a while. Got called down to make tea - French Toast!!! :D OM NOM NOM NOM. And then rushed back up to talk to O. Who then revealed that he was slightly drunk. :/ He then decided to splurge to me about bullying at school and how he's angry all the time and I tried to help him with his "rage" and "mood swings" and by the end I was named his Therapist. :) Talked to Hatter and started blogging. Did a bit of drawing and more video editing. And yeah. That's my evening so far. Spoke to O A LOT! Like, a lot a lot. That was fun. He's a very strange drunk. He's like, a mood swing drunk, and splurges an awful lot. Remind me to get him drunk if I ever want a secret out of him :P lol. He really is hilarious :)

Got slightly depressed before I went to bed :/ So yeah, not great. :(

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

Number 19 - Depression Sets In

Hi,

I woke up depressed today, not sure why but I did. Might be to do with my period starting today (not that I needed to put that in here) so I also had mega stomach cramps :/ Went on Fb just to see if anyone was on I could talk to (not that anyone I know would be online at 7 in the morning) when I realised that it was K's birthday seeing as it was 00:00 in California so I wished him a happy birthday before eating and getting dressed.

Did some music theory and german revision. That was extremely boring. I ate lunch and felt fat so decided to add insult to injury by nomming on a chocolate bunnys head. Uhhh, did a Theory test while listening to music. Went to check the melody that I had to make up on the piano and ended up spending half an hour playing it. Went back down. Listened to some depressing songs. Felt very depressed. Went on Fb again to see if anyone was on that I could talk to. No-one was so I sat on my bed for a while over thinking things. I must admit I cut myself a bit more so now my right arm matches my left arm... I felt a sudden need for symmetry. Not sure why. Kinda regret that now because I'm having to wear my gloves again and if it gets hot then The Mother will ask me to remove them. Here's to hoping we have a British summer.

Mom called up and told me I had to do my DofE Presentation so started that. Apparently Hatter called in on me but I didn't find that out until she told me on MSN later. Talked to Hatter and M for a bit but got told to concentrate by mother so I had to exit those conversations.

Got called down for dinner and watched The Simpsons and Top Gear with The Brother who also showed me a few new YouTube videos.

Went back up to read and do my presentation but The Mother insisted that she helped me so I missed 3 calls from O which would have cheered me up muchly. Alas it was not to be. We did as much as we could do without X being online to identify geographical features so The Mother left. I read, checked Fb and started my blog for the day. Got depressed while writing it... :/ So yeah....

Today wasn't really a very good day. And I don't even know why. I didn't really think about the Situation much today. I think I've reached the stage where it's just constantly at the back of my mind, numbing my "happy gland". That sucks. I really need to sort it out. Monday. I'll do it Monday.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

Number 18 - Visitors and Ballet

Had another weird dream this morning. I can't remember it. I just know it was weird. Something to do with a maze, cutting off evil childrens heads and giant deadly wasps. That was... interesting.

Yeah, so I started making cards on my Music Theory, occasionally having a break to go on Fb. Talking to Hatter and N - (which reminds me - watch scream 1 + 2) and such. That was basically the entireity of my morning. I tidied my room a little, sorted my ballet stuffles out, had a man come to the door to collect some packages, that was scary - I had to TALK to him. Like, I talked to a stranger. I was quite proud of myself actually. :) He was a friendly person.

Um, had lunch, just toast, a strip cheese and a chocolate muffin but still very NOM. :L

Completed my music exam after lunch, watched a cute PIXAR film:

After which Hatter called and I directed her to the "adorkable" video.

Went to music lesson with Hatter and The Mother where my exam was marked (got a merit: yesssssss) :P and The Mother drove us into town. There we bought our (pink) ballet tights, for £7.29!!!! D: And then got our Macdonalds. As we walked up to the dance place we complained that we were fat which was fun and degrading at the same time. We basically pigged out and felt fat until we got changed into our new "ballet gear" and became hyper and dancey :P

S arrived with his awesome red hair and joined us up in the mirror room where we pranced around and spun for a while until we were invited into our lesson. The lesson itself was okay because we just worked on the dance although it was very tiring. Hatter was talking with S and joking around because she is amazing at socializing so I just worked on the steps while they did that. It gets me down sometimes that I rely on other people to make friends for me. I can never make friends on my own because I don't know how to approach people. It sucks. And its just annoying that she can be totally natural and get really close to people really easily. I don't think it helps that I don't understand my emotions half the time :/ I'm just an odd human being.

Got home feeling a little down because my head hurt from doing too much thinking on the journey home, plus my wrist still hurts from the other day. My aunt was here so we talked for a while and she showed me some Fb pictures before she left. I went upstairs. Talked to O and L which was fun and meh. I did a bit more...stuff :/ and then decided to go to bed early. Read for about 3 hours and then finally decided to sleep (but blogged first obviously).

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. The whole L situation is really bringing me down. I've tried to end it 3 times now but every time I do he ignores it and pushes it away. I don't want him to break down (which I know he will) but as it drags on I feel like it's just wearing me away until I won't have any emotion left but grief. :/ It's the only thing that I can think about and the only time I don't is when I'm either talking to K, N or O. And I think that's because they all accept me for who I am because I'm myself when I talk with them, I don't have to act mature or anything around them because they're like me. They lift me up, and right now, they're the only thing that's helping me through this. And I'm grateful for that.

Number 17 - Ethics and The Internet

R.E. EXAM! GAH! Twas okay actually, not as bad as I was expecting. I think I might have gotten better marks than last time. I hope so anyways.

After the R.E. exam we all talked about our nerdyness and stuff (mainly the internet) and then (X (Zillas - who from now on will be called "Nerd")) and I went on an Epic Bookreturning Adventure while Hatter went to her piano lesson. We had fun with that but when we returned to The Bench (shock horror) it had been over-run by "populars" so we just perched on the edge and waited for them to get freaked out by our weirdness and move. Along the way X and Ninja joined us and we all talked about epicosity.

Hatter returned from her lesson and shortly after that the bell rang for lunch time so I went with Hatter to get some pizza. After we had the pizza (pepperoni) we returned to the octagon. H arrived and commented rudely about Ninjas hair (which is purple and awesome) We all chatted for a while and X asked us when we were going to leave so I said "Now!" and Hatter said "Wait!" and I said "No!" and dragged X round the corner, just as O and his friend A walked past :P

I called out and he turned and we had a quick conversation about my youtube channel and needles and stuff before we went back around the corner to Hatter. That conversation lasted a VERY long time and included a lot of Random(and Epic)osity. :D Twas a great conversation before X reminded us that we really did have to go. And so we did, after a awkward-ish goodbye that ended in a handshake.

Hatter and I walked along mostly by ourselves because X either lagged REALLY behind or walked REALLY fast in front. We kind of guessed that he wanted to be left alone or wanted attention so we didn't try to stay with him. It was a pretty good walk overall and we had a very "girly" talk as well as a small "manly" one too ;) The only awkward moment was when L called Hatter... I just stayed quiet and started thinking about all of the stuff going on between us and how I didn't want to hurt him even though I'm going to have to anyways. Every time I hurt him I feel it and it breaks my heart everytime. :/ I wish I could change it but I can't. That was one of our many conversations actually. What we would do if we could go back in time to specific points. Meh.

We arranged to meet up later to watch PAUL together and then went our seperate ways. X started saying "I'm fine!" whenever I asked him how he was (attention seeking much) and finally told me that he felt down because he was "invisible" although he kind of MAKES himself invisible. Aaaaaanyway.

Got home, ate, facebooked, learnt my key signatures (yesssssssssssss) and waited for Hatter to arrive. She did and we started watching PAUL which was EPIC! While being distracted by - M, N, O, L, Ninja, Plus a huge conversation involving everyone at the Octagon. Yeah, not fun.
We finished the movie and then started skyping O and his friend T within which much hilarity was created.

Eventually Hatter had to go so I bid her farewell before going back upstairs to revise my Music Theory. Although once again O distracted me.
I basically skyped with him the ENTIRE night which was fun. :) I teased him a lot about being....: Rich, Gay, A girl, A gamer, and his full name. Which eventually caused him to ignore me for a whole 10 minutes!!! He came around though (and I spent those 10 minutes skyping with T. :P) I apologised and he talked to me again so now I can't tease him about anything which sucks. He really does get worked up easily :P So yeah. That was fun.

And that was also my day so.... Farewell.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. Oooooh, and today I posted a picture of the Doormouse from Alice in Wonderland with the Bandersnatch eye and tagged O because 1. He broke his promise and 2. It was rather fitting as he thinks that both Hatter and I are obsessed with Alice in Wonderland (Which we kind of are.... :P)

Number 16 - Revision Fest

So, this morning I had a lie in and then started my revision routine. Had a break half way through and talked to L and Ninja and M for a bit before I went back. Then I had a test from mother (she rang the Hatter half way through to make sure that she was right ¬¬ and then arranged for me to meet up with Twin and B for a walk.) We carried on, I got dressed and then I ate re-heated mac cheese :P
I met Hatter and went for a walk. Got back to her house, realised I'd brought the wrong Doctor Who disk so after she ate her FAB we walked over to mine (without le dog) and found the disks. We revised for a bit (until The Mother departed) and then watched the first two episodes of Doctor Who (which were slightly strange) before we went upstairs and looked at my laptop. We ended up talking to O and his friend T on skype along with L, Ninja and M. That was fun. I cooked my Quiche in the microwave and it died into a mush so that was fun. I ate it anyway. Uhhh, O mocked me for going to brownies so I called him by his full name (after which Hatter and I sang the theme for Oliver Twist XD) Hatter then had to leave and I had to go to Brownies so we exited all of the conversations and left the house. Hatter went to X's house and I went to the school.
After I got back I skyped with O and T again for aaaaaaaaaaages, while revising and blogging. Then we had a convo with A - his friend that says hi to me all the time at school and I also Facebooked E - epical nerd. And... yeah, that was basically my day.

Oh, this morning I checked Facebook and saw this message left by Nin:

I know u might not wanna hear this but I think I'm in love with u  

Sooooo, I was like O.O and now I don't know what to do :/
Life is too confuzzywuzzling. D:

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. I HAD A DREAM! (a song to siiiiiiing!!! - Hate that song.... ¬¬)

So, everyone at the octagon set off for the walk to Broughton and somewhere along the lines we appeared on a railway track and we had to dodge trains at the last second. We were all wearing huge rucksacks and trying to walk quickly and then we were in a shopping mall and at the end of this tall corridor was this hill thing and at the top was a supermarket and so we all struggled up the hill, I helped everyone up and then walked back to take a run up when a shop assistant lady pointed out the steps round the corner so I walked up the steps to where everyone was waiting. I then led the way round and we were suddenly in an Olde English cobbled street. On the left was a wall which you could look over onto the town below and on the right was a Pub. So, as we weren't actually meant to go into the pub (I have no idea why) a few people stayed outside while the rest of us went in. We all sat at this round table and ordered a drink each and a sandwich. We only ordered one because it just kept refilling itself so it was fine :) So yeah, we all ate and drunk and then nearly everyone left to go to the toilet and then went outside. Hatter, X, Ninja and I were left so Hatter asked for the bill and then went to tell everyone that we were coming. The guy arrived with the bill but it wasn't right (because it said £30 and we'd only ordered drinks and a sandwich) so I started altering it. I then noticed that someone had ordered a HUUUUGE flagon of beer (which then appeared on our table) so I told the bar person that we didn't order one and then he told me that someone else had ordered one for us and that he wouldn't take it back so we would have to drink it. So obviously Ninja volunteered to drink it but I told him I wouldn't let him get drunk and then X offered but his alcohol tolerance is like ... so I said no. Then I put £20 on the table and so the bar person grabbed my arm and told me to pay up so I went ninja and kicked his head, told everyone in the pub that it was self defence and turned back to the guys, only to find that Ninja had chugged the whole of the flagon. And was now utterly drunk. So I steered him out and we met up with everyone outside. And then I was partially woken up so it went a bit blurry but there was a part where Ninja professed his "undying love for me"... I guess I know where that came from... So. Yep. That was my dream. Weird of what?! :P

Number 15 - Talking

I want to die. Seriously. Today I revised and it was boring as hell. Luckily Hatter, N, Ninja, M and Jo (another old friend) were online to talk to me and keep me sane. There was a bit of suckishness in between but that was fine. I also talked to L about the stuff and he still doesn't understand :/
Uhhh. Had a bit of a talk with K on skype and that was fun for a while. He is constantly talking in his English accent and he's surprisingly good at it. :P

I'm on the phone to L right now. It's super painful :'( He's so cheerful and stuff and I don't know what to say. :/ I tried to explain but he won't listen. Eventually he said that he had to go because his dad was calling him so... once again I was left without anything being solved. I cried a bit afterwards but I pulled myself together and I think I'm a little better now.

He's coming into school on Tuesday so I'm going to try to talk to him about it then. It's going to end badly and I don't want that but if he keeps hanging on then he's going to get hurt. :(

Talking with Ninja and doing my DofE presentation trying to keep my mind off other stuff. Might resort to cutting again. Don't know yet. Depends whether I get depressed enough.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. I talked to O and his friends yesterday on a skype call. :) It was awesome. And The Brother told me today that apparently tomorrow is the one year anniversary of him asking me out, which means that today last year was the first time we met properly. It seems pretty weird, and strange that its been... a year. (and even stranger that The Brother told me :P lol.)

Number 14 - A Pool Party Splurge

So, where to start?

Well, I revised in the morning like a good little girl ^^ and blasted Avril Lavigne out of the speakers :P I was then collected by the Hatter and X's family and we left for the Pool Party :)

When we arrived we sat in the Gazibo for a while, hurling beach balls around until H decided that she didn't need fingers. This led onto challenge after challenge of "not using our fingers" including eating crisps and opening a packet of bread-sticks. The finale of this epicosity was H going "drink bobbing" which consisted of her dunking her entire face into a bucket of ice. :P Enough said.

Everyone arrived just as we entered the pool and we had some lilo fun for a while before people discovered the water bombs. :) Then we ate and shizzle and then dried off... only to enter the pool again :)

H and I had a bit of fun with a whirl pool and the water balloons while M tried to destroy "our babies" :) Eventually we all had enough of the water and so we dried off. That's when it all went to pot...

I went upstairs to join Hatter and Ninja on the games console which led to a conversation that was just a tad awkward. It was fine after a while though and I was taught how to snipe (again :P) Everyone trekked upstairs so we shunned the males out or L's bedroom and got changed. :) When the girls came downstairs they had already decided on the film - Jonny English... ¬¬ It's an irritating film. So when I went back upstairs to moisturise my legs I stayed and watched C game. Then Hatter and H came up and we were all joking around until L came up to say we needed to get down otherwise we'd be sent home. So we all walked downstairs and watched the film. I sat between L and Ninja... How awkward.... Even more when H sat in-between my legs. L and M left part way through to buy chocolate and popcorn which we all eagerly welcomed :) This re-arranged the seating plan a little until I was between H and Ninja... Which was even more awkward. Everyone eventually realised that L had disappeared and we thought he'd gone to the shop until he called down that someones phone was ringing. I went back up to talk with him, only to find him curled up on his bed with a knife in his hand. Needless to say I removed the knife very quickly and passed it to The Giant One who talked with L for a while about knives. The Giant One then started gaming in the corner while L and I hugged. Eventually The Giant One left and I just... Splurged. L was talking about loving to hold me forever and I was like..... "Yeah.... I don't think I love you in that way anymore." And then I started crying. It didn't help that he then started talking about us getting through this together.  Which made me cry even more. His mom came in after a while and I calmed down a bit and told him to go downstairs.

I lay there for a while before I heard footsteps. I knew it was Hatter and started to cry again. I couldn't even remember why I was crying at that point. I was just numb. My mind had just shut down.

We talked about it and then moved to the library where we talked some more until C came up and talked to me. Hatter removed herself from the scene and C and I talked about life sucking. I think I made him cry after I hugged him... so that sucked even more.

And then L came up so C and Hatter removed themselves. We talked some more and he basically clamped me down onto the sofa and told me that he loved me. I think he wanted me to say something back but I basically shouted that I didn't any more. Damn impulsiveness. So yeah. Gah. FML.

He had to say goodbye and stuff to people who were leaving so I went back into L's room, had a quick chat with C and then went downstairs and Hatter went up to talk to C and L. So while Hatter, C and L talked I made my way to the dining room and stuffed my face with "Comfort food - Watermelon".

Ninja, X and I talked about random and pointless shit which took my mind of the thing for a while. We then went into the lounge but I discovered that they were watching Friends and tried to leave... but then H grabbed me and pulled me down between her and M so I just stuck my fingers in my ears until they turned it down. We all  (Ninja, H, X, and I) ended up shuffling over to the corner and talking about the little swingy ball things on H's iPod until L came down and killed the moment.

Then I ran up and down the stairs like a loon, first to warn hatter that The Mother had arrived half an hour early, then just pointlessly talking to people and moving around.

In the end we said a few awkward goodbyes and then.... left. Hatter and I exchanged a few awkward glances a couple of times until we arranged to meet up quickly afterwards. After leaving a note on Hatters table we dumped our bags and left for the church yard. There we sat and talked for a while about pointless shizzle and crappy stuff. And after walking around the church yard a bit, it started to rain so I headed home.

When I got back I started Blogging and talking to Ninja and C on Fb. And that's pretty much it.

GAH my life sucks right now. FML. I want to die. Why can't he just hate me? Where does this leave us? I don't even know any more.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. I think that todays word is officially SPLURGE.
P.P.S. This is officially the end of my love life. I refuse to date EVER again. Because it ends with someone getting hurt.
P.P.P.S. Ach crap, 6th form induction is going to be crap. FUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKK!

Ok. I'm done.

Number 13 - GRAPHICS! ARGH!

I had my Graphic Products Exam today. It sucked majorly! D: The questions were either stupidly easy or utterly disasterous. NOTHING in-between :/  But there isn't anything I can do about it now so I'm not going to discuss it further.

SO, after that I got home and started chatting to N. :) That went on for about an hour and a half before I was forced to do some RE revsion. I had a break while I ate and then began again. I've almost finished the textbook notes so then all I need to do is learn them :)

Talked to Ninja and N a bit more and a friend (one that asked My Ginger Nerd out) started talking to me (asking about the asking out bussiness) :L We chatted a bit more and then she had to go so I was left alone. So I took it upon myself to learn some literal trailers :D I have now learnt Harry Potter, Assassins Creed and am now working on Pirates of the Carribean. Lol.

So yeah. I'm going to get back to that! XD A completely pointless waste of my time... yay!

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. I am also of thinking of learning to juggle.... I just need some juggling balls :P

Number 12 - A Pretty Pointless Day

TODAY! GAH!

Did revision. More revision. And more revision. REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION. Talked to L and N on Fb. Because I'm cool like that. REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION. Did a bit of dance in my break and then had lunch. :P Nom. :D REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION. Exam with the Hatter which was fun for a while. :P Then ballet for a bit.... but we moved to the twins house half way through because she had the music :D And walked Le Dog. :P which was... fun? I don't really know. We weren't really that hyper but ahh well. Um. Got home. Watched a few youtube videos. Ate. :) That was cool I suppose.. and yeah. REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.REVISION.

And that is it :D Nothing else really to say. Apart from yesterday, Ninja told me he was going to give up... :/ which made me feel slightly unloved and sad....  But it's whatever he thinks is best. He can't (and won't) wait around for me forever...

So...

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

Number 11 - Revision and Reunions (plus a totally hot guy :P)

TODAY! I did loooooaaaadddddddsssssss of revision. Literally, made notes out of the entire text book :D I am very proud of myself.

In between that, H called to ask about a present for L. I had no idea so I called Hatter and we had a long phone conversation while we were meant to be revising. :P that was fun.

I had a major spaz in the middle of the day when it started raining and I had to get the washing in Super Fast. The pegs were thrown on the floor in a messy heap which sucked when I had to peg the things back up again.... Mud.... :P

And then we went to dance :) Well.... we had a manic time being our crazy selves and today S was thrown into the mix :D An awesome dude that joined our dance class who has red hair, blue eyes, smells nice and does contemporary dance..... WHY am I not single?! :P lol. So yeah. That was a fun lesson.

I got home and revised some more :( had pizza for tea (yummy) :D

THEN!!!!! : A very old friend (now named N) got facebook and now we're back in touch!!! Yayness! I was sooooo happy :P and he's going to our 6th form AND going on the same induction thingy as me (YESSSSS)
so that was awesome :) we had a mega conversation XD twas hilarious.

Apart from that nothing really happened. I talked to Ninja over the phone about the convo L and him had about H. It was just a joke... so.... back to the beginning. Also, he probs cant go to the pool party so that sucks. He will be missed. :P

Ok, so, I'm done.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx

Number 10 - Dr. Who in my Cleavage

HELLO THERE AGAIN!!!

Today I got up early (shock horror!) in order to visit the dress makers. :) The nice lady helped fix my dress although I did feel slightly self conscious when I had to take off my bra and let her adjust the dress around my... boobie area. Oddest sensation ever. My mother was in the room so I don't think it counts as sexual harassment... does it? whatever. Got back home and... well... revised. That was boring. AND I HAD TOATS (toast not toats...) FOR LUNCH!!! Just thought I'd put that out there :D So yeah... I actually worked for pretty much the whole day until The Brother returned home from school and "forced" me to watch a few episodes of The Inbetweeners with him... :D Yay!

Then Hatter arrived. And that is where the awesomeness began :P She had somehow acquired a small T.A.R.D.I.S. that fit onto the end of a pencil so obviously we put it in peculiar places in my front garden to make it seem like it was on different planets... or ripping a hole in the space/time continuum (placing it behind wobbly glass) and taking photos XD That was good fun.
It was then that I remembered that The Brother had a few Dr. Who figurines in his collection of Doctor Who Stuff. I quickly visited his room and although I was only allowed to take one figurine... I took two (ooh how naughty.. Teehee. lol.) David Tennant... and a Space Pig. :P :D We had much fun with "Honey I Shrunk the T.A.R.D.I.S.!" For a while which resulted in boob shadows and a picture of David Tennant as The Doctor sitting in my cleavage with a T.A.R.D.I.S. on his head... so... yeah.

After the Hatter disappeared, along with B - her dog who kept tangling me up - and Her Mother, we ate and then I finished revision. watched another episode and then. Tada! I went to bed and watched youtube videos. The end. Oh, apart from L sending me indecent texts about my bikini... ¬¬ Oh how I want to strangle him. >.> Grrr!

Ok, NOW I'm done.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx


P.S. OOOOOOHHHHH, "Then BAM! A T.A.R.D.I.S. appears and crushes the coke can!" :P
P.P.S. There seems to be a lot going on to do with my boobies today... perhaps it's a sign. For what I don't know... but hey! It shall make itself known eventually. That is all. Goodnight.

Number 9 - ORANGE JWS! Plus an Exam...

Today… was ok I guess. Got up at 8 to do some last minute revision for maths and did that until C and Hatter had arrived. We were all transported to the school and sat at the octagon bench where we were joined by ninja. We all chatted for a while until ninja and I decided to clear off to our maths lessons (where we were meant to be, Lol.) I entered the classroom and got out my revision cards but unfortunately I was distracted by L and M. :P After some hilarious conversations about the pool party, rock and career choices and some general “shush-ing” from the teacher we left class and visited the octagon again where our loyal gang was hanging. We all mucked around for a bit and talked about how we were all going to fail the maths exam while we ate our lunch and I tried to avoid talking and generally being near both L and Ninja. It was a tricky task – trust me. Twas horrible but I managed it to some extent.

I kept that up until we all trailed off to outside the gym to check our seats and whatever. I had a good talk with My Ginger Nerd and he informed me that he had just been “asked out” by a girl that we both knew. Seeing as this was a totally new experience for him (AWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!) I helped him to figure out what he was going to do. He said he didn’t like her in that way and that he liked another girl (although he refused to tell me who he fancied – I will wear him down bit by bit and get it out of him eventually :P muahahha) so I told him to politely decline her offer. I'm hoping that he does just that because I would hate for him to lead her on – she is a nice girl after all. J

Uhh, so after that little chat I re-joined the gang and talked a little more about L’s addiction to “coffee” – ooer – and M being the Ninjas apprentice :D We went into the 2 hour long exam worked up and nervous. We came out cursing and weeping. Section A was abysmal and I have failed it but Section B was better so that should bring up my marks a little… I’ve still failed though :P Yay!

We all went back to the octagon and had a little chat about the exam before we departed and set off for the bus.

The bus journey was slightly boring as neither Hatter or Myself had any energy left for our normal hyper-ness. L Athough Hatter and I did have an Epic moment near the end in the form of ORANGE JWS! :D Good times.

I went to my theory lesson – EXAM NEXT WEEK! GAH! And it was ok – we weren’t late – phew – but I was almost eaten alive when she realised I didn’t know my key signatures :P

I returned home and headed straight for C’s house. J I spent about 2 hours “revising” with Hatter and C – this consisted of Dr. Who, Texting, chatting and a little Working. And after looking through C’s texts I have realised he doesn’t think he’s worthy to be my friend… or anyone else’s for that matter. He really needs to listen to Emily more often. ¬¬

I left and showered - long and relaxing while washing my hair – before eating my dinner, Chicken Kiev’s and a huuuuuuge muffin… NOM! I watched a few episodes of The Inbetweeners with The Brother and then went upstairs and waxed my legs. Now they’re all smoothy smooth :D :D :D

I watched a few videos on youtube – Charlieissocoollike, Ray William Johnson and Toby Turner/Tobuscus before L rang. We talked on the phone for a while about the pool party and such – apparently his nextdoor neighbour IS going – as of about an hour before he rang but is going to be late… so there's still going to be a bit of awkwardness…. Fun. OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH!!!! He told me this secret that I really shouldn’t post here but I'm going to anyway! Apparently, Ninja took L off to the side today before we left for the bus and told him that he likes H… I didn’t see that one coming. Now, he is either trying to be sneaky and lead L into a false sense of security and take him off the right track of liking me OR he really does like H…. OR he’s trying to make me jealous. Either way its not making me feel too good. Knowing my luck it isn’t the second option but if it is then it’s probably because of what I said to him about H on Thursday – that last pool party she made out with L and that she’s kinda...like… horny? If that’s the right word? Nearly all the time… but I didn’t say it like that. I'm not that harsh… I don’t know how I said it now but hey, I think he got the wrong idea. Ninja can be a bit of a jerk some of the time… most of the time… all of the time. (Well not all but… yeah Ill stick with most.)

Mleh, so we got off the phone and I went upstairs to write and upload my blog and check my twin’s blog but the internet was cruelly shut off so I had no choice but to wait. D: still, it’s up now so... Yayness! I shall do another one tonight. Until then.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx