Okay I think I'm over it. Everything has been shoved in the emotions fridge and I know that one day I'll probably have to deal with things when they resurface but the alternative was feeling so guilty that I wanted to die so i think this is a good choice. 

Not that I wasn't thinking about it before Saturday happened. But it certainly helped solidify that decision. 

That said I didn't try particularly hard to finish things on Sunday. I could have gone further,. Done much worse. 

I chose a stupid method to try. I don't know why because after researching before I knew it was the hardest. But was also the most accessible. The easiest at the time. I was impatient. I need to be smarter about it next time.