Summer

So summer is upon us. and has been for quite some time i suppose,.

my hungergames party was a success. and i was proud of le cake.
we are definitely going to do it again.
kill of the event was jordan surprise attacking luke with a dagger whilst shaking for a truce..... :P ah, luke is just too trusting. ;)

Got pissed off at Jordan the other day
he can be so hypocritical sometimes!
he had a huge go at me for trying weed and made me feel shitty and so guilty about it and then what did he go and do on tuesday? Smoke it himself.
well fuck that.
i did have a good venting session though.
hollie came over and i ranted a lot and even though she didnt contribute more than asking why i was still with him if he annoyed me so much, she did allow me to just... release. i suppose it helped that she supplied the joints, on top of the alcohol i provided and we got majorly..... happy. CAKE.
The rides at the fair were ten times better. :D and the roundabout at the park when we got back to broughton seemed amazing... im not even kidding.
however, the walk home, in the dark, accross the fields, was not as fun....
im glad we did it though. i needed that release.
i have noticed ive become even more tolerant of alcohol. which is a bummer. i need that buzz.
oh dear. i just said need.
perhaps im an addict....
nah. :P

anyways. went to chris' party yesterday and almost pulled an all nighter, but got sent out when luke declared we all needed to shut up because he couldn't sleep.... :P

going away tomorrow. i just need to relax. im going to try not to go online too much and just ignore the outside world for a bit. it makes it so stressful.
especially when arguing with jordan.
actually, just talking to him in general. i want to make sure he's safe.... even if i dont show that im concerned, i really am.
as i said to hollie, i stay with him because he is my rock. he always reassures me of myself and my worth and all of that soppy shit. i just depend on him so much more than i let on. and i dont know whether thats particularly healthy or not....
i suppose i'll see by the end of july.

This was a very rough talking thing today. i kinda like not caring about capitals and spelling and punctuation and stuff.
pehaps i should do it mroe often...

over and out,

Gloves. xx

P.S. Kieran is coming in TWO FREAKING WEEKS!!! :D :D :D