Stressing

I can't deal with everything right now.
The pressure is just building and I can just feel myself teetering on the edge. Right on the brink. And I don't want to jump, but I don't know whether I have the choice to go back.

I'm slowly losing it. Losing my composure. Losing my mask. Losing my judgement.

Today I actually shouted at a teacher. I have never let my anger show in public like that before, but I just can't help it.
Then after school I literally lay face down on a table for ten minutes and refused to move. I was bickering with myself in my head as I rode round and round on the bike, and apparently my face was so blank that none of the girls wanted to confront me. It was only after I snapped out of it that they tried to talk to me.
And I was scratching my arms too. Full out scraping at my skin, just to keep myself composed.

I'm freaking losing it.

I need to stop stressing out and calm down.

Over and out,

Gloves. xx