So.... My life officially sucks right now.
I had a very long talk with Hatter last night during our sleepover and have still not reached any conclusion whatsoever. In fact, I think it might have made it a teeeensy bit worse. We 'overtalked' about everything and whilst talking about the current predicament I ended up saying the seriously shitty word that begins with L. Crapstickles. It just slipped out while we were talking and now it just buzzes around my head like an irritating little insect.
Some god thing up there has it in for me - my life has become a living nightmare (to insert some humour: female horse of the night). I'm indecisive about nearly everything and I don't know what the hell I am going to do. I think I might just let it play out ans hope I don't get too depressed during the exam period.
Today was.... Meh. I did maths revision for most of the day and listened to "Bolero" several times to try to calm me down, after walking my twin - Hatter, home. Went golf at about 1 'o'clock. That wasn't any help either. I'm still aching from yesterday and every time I tried to focus, one of "Their" names popped into my head and put me off. ¬ ¬ Then it started raining... pathetic fallacy much. D: and there was a miserable atmosphere pretty much the whole day. FML. Still. I'm hoping that it will get a little easier to deal with over time.
On a more positive note: Hatter uttered an EPICAL quote last night that kept us giggling the whole night (although the real meaning really isn't something to laugh about, in fact - I should be worried... but hey.) :- "You are a Challenge." in the style of 'Carl' from "Llamas with Hats". Awesome. Just awesome. :D
Also - Only about 2 months until I go to america!!! :P I cannae wait! Sun, Sea, and learning to 'Quick-Scope' with Keiran (yessssssssssss) who is epically funny and makes me laugh every time we talk XD Perhaps he can keep me happy/sane until all of this mess blows over. I do hope so.
Over and out,
Gloves. xx
P.S. I had a really odd conversation with Ninja just now and I don't exactly know what to do. I shall think about it tonight and blog about my feelings on the subject tomorrow.
Also, I recently discovered that I ramble when I'm nervous. I don't know whether its good that I worked it out now or bad that I worked it out whilst talking to 'him'. Hmmm... ****.
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